Ah. Having short hair have its pros and cons, as every little thing does. it made my cheeks look as chubby as ever. HAHA something I can do without (I am naturally chubby already, hence the dimples LOL). And the good thing is that, wax can make it gravity-defying!



Bumming around like a couch potato after latelate lunch, I whipped out my brother's strongest wax and played around. Amusing activity HAHA. There's one where I made myself like the second Paul Twohill (hopefully with nicer voice), made the back stand up, slap tons of eyeliner and looked like a full-fledged MINAH. The horror; I do not know to be amused and laugh or to be distraught and cry at my ability to even look remotely like those Malay stereotypes. With framed specs, I am fully certified to be one already. Ah well.



Haha. Each hour passed with a heartache; how oh how I miss and yearn for. I must detox myself of you, yet I know it's the reverse now. Keeping myself occupied to forget, yet everytime the cell buzzed the hopes of seeing THE name soared like the KL Twin Towers. Silly I know. Would you mind if I tell you of feelings that had been long suppressed? Of course you do. I'll keep it buried till I know it will not claw its way out again. Then I shall tell you of the past affection. But at this rate, I'll turn sixty before I will ever stop loving you.


Ah well. Continue with the typings and Korean shows. Naz, don't try watching 'A Moment To Remember'. I was on the verge of crying (but I never and never will) so I can't imagine the waterworks for you if you do watch it. Haha. With all the rain, we need not any more floods right? Save them when it's hot and sweltering in June. (:


I dreamt. But I never took action. That was all.

ofblack&white
7:52 PM

Oit! Boredom drives me to this point of updating something random. (: I've been thinking about it abit; 5 people (from SR) I would like to meet (or see if I may not be in heaven God forbid) in heaven. Tough battle. Well, not really, cause I'm attached to a few. So let me start! It's in random order so the few who might read, please don't judge it as me prioritising or whatev yes?


NO 1: Michelle Lai Mi Xue




Why her? Hmm. Maybe because we spent a year closely working on yours truly, PW. And settling on... weird PW members. Apart from that, she's loads of cock&bull and whatever nonsense she manage to spin out of thin air. Such a great person! And always there for mathematical doubts (I think economics also). HAHA. Such a joy, brings out the fun and laughter. And so oblivious to the world. I love love love her innocence (though some were knackering at me on how I've been a bad influence). (: And blue. I'll buy blue stuff and her image and voice came screeching into my head. *pinch!*


NO2: Muhammad Hamzah Zainal




HE'S THE PROPER GENTLEMAN. HAHA. Fantab boy, even though people say he's weird. Well, nobody's perfect and overlooking the oddness in him, he's the perfect listener. (: One of the first few in SR that I've got to know. Reliable, so open-minded I can hug him to death and so so bloody patient (besides being with Mathematics). And a genius too! Knows all (except Mathematics formulae) and humble. MINUS POINT: STOP TALKING ABOUT YOUR ST. PATS. (: He's such a wonderful male! I'll be really very sad that he's gone for NS. But chin up, like you said, you'll be MUCH more manlier than Wil. (: *smiles*


NO 3: Nazatul Fadzlin Fadil




Understand that she's trying so hard to look cute (failed attempt though. I'ts ok try again next time). She's a crybaby. And the tendency to be so nice that it is annoying. Ok kidding (: She's so reliable and trustable that anybody in need can come to her (even if it will hurt her =.-). My cousin, my wailer, my membabi buta, my crybaby, my idiot. Well. She's still mine and all. She probably have a "Solve Everything" Handbook since she always manage to find the answers to most problems (save why she's being too nice). Always remembering birthdays, this and that, looking for people's pros rather than con, it goes on! What more can I say? *hugs*


NO 4: Lim May Yee




HAHA. This one! I don't know what to say, too much to say! The one who'll be beside me in almost every class. Ah well. She's in the List because she is so nice! And funny. In a cold way. Her jokes freezes even the fattest penguin please. Well, she's been there since forever and dependable too. And never pushes for her way and never complain and never WHINE (her best friend does the honours). She's the only one in school I think, who often have to bear the brunt of my 24/7 hormonal disorders (which caused tantrums and tempers of course). ((: So reliable and sweeet, for she sends me over in the umbrella (I'm still wet though...). I love her soo! (:
PS: Stop tickling me.


NO. 5: Muhammad Syahril Idris





OH. Possibly THE bitchiest boy I've the pleasure to meet. He sings and dances and plays imaginary cymbals, flutes, trombones; any instrument. Always have the knack to call people weird names (I'm Mpule, Naima, Alkane, Mina Chiba; the list goes and grows). He brought out the fun and silliness everywhere; in class lecture whatev. A teacher's pet too. Mr Lee Muah Khing I think. Apart from this facade, he can be a really sweet sweet and understanding person (: And that's what I like about him. *tickles*



That's my list folks! even if I were casted into the depth of hell, maybe looking up and see those five happily in Heaven would make my day. They are such special people I cannot describe. I may not mean that much to them but that does not deter me from keeping them close in. ((: I'll pray for your happiness ok? And anyone dare hurt them (especially Mayyee and crybaby Naz) you'll have me to answer to. Haha. Mich will probably be high-pitching about her face being inside. Ah well.


Good night love (:

ofblack&white
9:15 PM

FUN! Screamed my blood. I saw Mun&Dicky in 87, and when I changed, Mima was there. Like I cannot get enough of my juniors. =.- Training. It painfully reminds me how outoftouch I am. And I kind of enjoyed goalkeeping actually. It was fun, although the wrist paid a price. Coach Marco and Rosli came for an hour half or even lesser I think. But having is better than not. (: Tiring. My mind nagged at me for letting my fitness dropped. But as they say, the body overpowered the mind. I hope I can reverse the effect.



Train-ed to Dhoby with that couple again. So sweet those two (in a fighting joking way); beats sugar anytime. I kind of gotten lost at the mrt station itself. Don't blame me, it's huge as most of you may know. I ended up at some arcade in the station itself. =.= But it's great, had Time Crisis 4 but I couldn't play anyhow. Howell. Apparently she was also lost HAHA that's why she took sometime to get to the Starbucks. Walked to Cathay, got the ticks, and turned back to PS for lunch. BK beckoned me like bees to honey.



Happy Feet is cute please. The penguins were so cute! Especially when they're at the baby stage. Uber uber cute I felt like going up and pinching them till they die. HAHA. Disturbing. I was gushing like a kid, and I swear we were the oldest around. Haha Mayyee fit in anytime though.



So afters; Walked and walked and got myself a pair of earrings. Pretty, in my opinion. She branded me a Singaporean tourist in my own country. Walked the perimeter of the Arts Museum, looking on and chat and teased like the usual crap that we do. Chijmes' shops are pretty, really. Saw this earring with the Chinese character of Luck. I should've bought it for her so she could wear it on chinese new year. And flip her over! LOL. So cheena. Ended up at Raffles and we hit basement, parfum shops, Prints (I love that shop), Crumpler, Nike, funny funny shops. I think the Twinklet at Precious thoughts (or whatev it's called) looks so so so adorable. I liked the green one, but it is so expensive, I could buy enough food for Africa to eat. She can annoy people with the coldest jokes and well, lamest thoughts. I liked the art gallery on first floor. We saw a bust with ultra big boobs that I was compelled to take a photo of it and send to michlim. HAHA.



Was home by 6.30, after a short haircut. Funny how I know the aunty so well I just have to enter the shop and said cut and she did whatev I like. ((:


SPEND ALOT. ) : Let's see. 0.50$ on Chrysanthemum Tea, 13$ on tickets (since I said I'd treat that thing), 6.70$ on BK meal. 6$ on earrings and some funny bookmark. 10$ on haircut and 1.30$ on bubbletea. I was tempted BnJs along the way but the scrooge pulled me away and said nooo. =.-



Tiring. And happy, with such a nice day but horrid I'll-give-you-skin-cancer sun. Although walks in town in the afternoon was not so bad, try training in the morning heat. I got a shade darker. Anna turned ten shades darker (I never know how it's possible) but well. ((:


Whisper the words in my ear, the words I want to hear.
But I might as well hope cows and elephant seals to fly before that happens, ever. =\ At least I have than have nothing at all.

ofblack&white
6:52 PM

Bad night, feels I. HAHA. Sounds retarded to be typing in an unconventional English structure. Anyway yes, it's a bad night last night, for Sleep evaded me like black death. I swear, I felt insomnia screaming in my veins last night. And to top it off 2005/2006 played in my mind like some fucken blackandwhite (p. ramlee style) and I was so mauldlin and melancholic I cried myself silly. Really. To thank Qis for hearing out my... cries and wails about missing and not seeing and all the lame shennanigans people in love would do. Hais. I musn't read any more Mansell/Flannagan novels anymore. Must start hitting the Conellys. I only kocked out at 3+.



Cycled at 9+ to Tanah Merah to meet Michlai and went off to NSRCC in the cold cold shuttle bus. Funny affair there. I impressed her with all the fantab facilities, hahaha. Slight drizzle as we walked the stretch of (clean and nice) beach. Especially nice was the seashells that was in abundance. So lovely that place. I whistled and attempted to shout when dogs were barking at us. Kind of terrified of those huge things!
"Ili it's your fault! Quick climb down!"


Airhockey and pooled of course. twas fine, for a beginner like her. (: Bus-ed in the cold and ended up at Tampines for lunch please. BK Rendang never taste so delicious I don't know why. Must be ravishing, despite a plate of rice for breakfast. Hit the arcade to maybe glimpse someone but apparently not on shift. Never mind. My StrikersII skills are deteriorating like algae and I screamed like a cow. Ok cows don't scream but you get the point. Mich was sshh-ing me for the embarrasment which i was oblivious to. HAHA. Played some dumb 'I go down you go up' prank on Naz on the escalators. I felt like Peterpan now. Ham joined then Mich left for her jobthing while the three cruised to my aunt's.


I never said it was quite over at Aunty Leha's place. Such an uproar. I came empty-handed and left with a ridiculous braid on my hair, two full bags of korean dvds and laughing memories there. Hilarious, my aunt is. Got Naz and Ham amused I suppose.
And we parted ways.



Lovely day, spent with nice people ((: I cannot wait for proper field training tomorrow (it's been months yes) and happy Feet! Imagine penguins all over made me warm all over like a seal. Pray tomorrow will be as good a day as today.

As I sleep I wonder, what's left...

ofblack&white
9:08 PM

It is rather taxing a day, waking up at 3 and sleeping back, only to be woken up at 6.30, 7.15 and 8 again. Ah well, not something that I can avoid. Went for madrasah, and today's the start of the written endofyear. I almost forgot how to study. And I almost forgot how to answer my questions in nice Malay. I am ashamed to say that I am a disgrace.


I went for jemputan today (the first in almost half a year). Not that I do not enjoy the food, it's just the crazy atmosphere with the bass of the music thumping your heart out; that put me off. I outrightly told my mum that on my wedding day, we'll play Michael Buble fullstop. She laughed, I wonder what was amusing to her. =.-



Hurr. I've been told that melancholy does not suit me, and stop being loveydovey. Bleh! I shall try to follow those sgaely words, though I doubt I could stop myself. How, I ask, could you settle for less when you have the best?


Funny thoughts ran through my mind like a carousel. I hope I could see the pikture next week! Pleasant surprise, like seeing a pretty polar bear in Borneo.


Don't you know you fool, you can never win. Use your mentality, step up to reality. But each time I do, just the thought of you makes stop before I begin!


Guess where that came from. Anyway, we bought fishes for the pond, and I swear they are drunk, for they were looking at their reflection and swimming to and fro it so many times I lost count.


I'd prefer furry cats anyway. Goodnight!

ofblack&white
8:29 PM

It was torturous getting yourself up by 6.30, something I'm not used to anymore, especially when you survived less than ten hours of sleep in two days. Sleep is getting into me. He bothers so much that i was having difficulties in keeping my eyeballs in place.



Anyway, went I did to the Scape, met the rest at Somerset. Had breakfast with Nurul Kat Cas at a shop that screamed cosiness. To top it off I saw a fat cat and it is ohmygod adorable.


Haha so. It was an ok event. But we only got a match to decide whether we stayed on or not. Apparently not, for I was the defender, and being a nervous wreck (since it's against Bishan Arsenal -.-) I fumbled quite. But hope I did fine. So! None of us got in!! Haha! We've got three teams, one against the wiry spring-y haired girl's team (she's from Queenstown Sec I think) and I forgot the other's name. Ah well. We nearly got in for one, Huda's team but had a penalty shootout which they lost. But it's ok! Good try ((:



Went FarEast with Huda Nurul Anna Cj Zhong and Huiqi for late lunch. Quite an affair, for Nurul Zhong and I ordered carrot cake which seemed to come from Kalimantan (recall the BURNT logs). Well t wasn't exactly burnt, but the owner was nice to give us free wantans and charkway and free flow of drinks. Nurul say it's to entice us to come by more oft since we came as a team. LOL. People stared haha and it was fairly embarassing really. Walked with Huiqi all the way to Le Meridien while she waited for the bus with me. I learnt something the Britannica can't supply. HAHA. And I'm well... quite happy.


Then it was raining white dogs with small collars (as he said) and freezing penguins when we walked. I love the rain. Pretty feeling, to get your hair plastered on your face looking like a berk. LOL.




Talking about penguins, I want to watch Happy Feet! HAHA. Good evening love (:

ofblack&white
7:41 PM

Back! From a twodayonenight affair with A06 (minus Qinglin, Aniza, Jas Angie and Lor). Muchlove((: It was fun, plus any issues between me and well my friend was resolved of course, with us still at each other's throats, the annoying one. ((: Sorry for whatever haha! It's going to be a boring entry filled to the brim with the most dreary details so I warn you readers out there! (If I have any in the first place LOL)



Anyway I was at Mima's glued to the PS2 when I went off on 15 to Pasir Ris. Directional idiot I am, met Mayyee and hopped on the right bus. She gave me a belated gift and told me not to open it till I'm home but I did anyway when she wasn't around. Sorry haha. But it turned out to be the prettiest gift ((: Cross-stitched something (I was quite amazed that she's capable of cross stitching) and Nike shinguards! Just the type that matches my boots (sliver and blue). I love you!! Thanks ((:



At Downtown I saw a PINK Hello Kitty vespa and it was SO cute. I'd want to join the draw but I hate Hello Kitty, though the pink enticed me. Anyway met Heiwai Naz and Michlim who passed us the keys while they went off to get some grub. The room was pretty decent; two adjoining ones. And smack! Went the pillow into her face. HAHA should hear her making all the weird sounds she always make, funny! Start of a one-sided pillow fight.



We went to met the rest at the er... coffeeshop? yea. Met Michlai Ham and Syahril on the way, passed them the keys, and I had Naz do feed-the-Ili session with her roast chicken or whatever. Grab essentials at Cheers and back in the room. We were all over the place jumping tickling screaming and whatever girls can do.



Wilson came shortly after and few rounds of taidee then I went out for some breather and a call. Zy and Xj came by and then tried to start the fire, yadayada. Start cooking already! Haha I ate alot, guilty of that. Syahril's pasta was delicious please, plus all e other food he prepared. My favourite would be his dessert; split banana stuffed with marshes and chocolate chips wrapped in foil and cooked. AH. He's the best cook please. Ms Huda came by and chatted, ate the likes. Drizzled and indoor activity was PS2 (his PS2 had to be the unmodified one -.-) Tekken3; team battle mode. The frenzy I tell you. Even-numbered register number in one and odd-numbered in the other. I've got Naz Syahril (the trump card) Mayyee and Michlai. The rest was in the other. Really crazy I tell you. Frenzied screams, tirumphant cheers. HAHA.




I think we started our way out sometime about 11. Walked to the beach, then further left and left and left. To somewhere dark and er... creepy? Not so lah. I find it really refreshing walking amidst trees at night. Wanted to go to the tower but some were afraid. Well we can't force them it was not really fair. Haha so walked and talked, mostly to Mayyee lah, since the rest either walk too fast or slow. Reached the Pasir Ris interchange, then u-turned. It was quite tiring by the time we reached 'home'.



Had a nice cold shower, and played bluff? Ham was pathetic at that, I hate to say. To prove my point, have you seen anyone who put down his set of cards, say 3 Jacks. With a poker face, he put it down. Second later he burst out laughing and took the whole pile. Weird right? Hard to change a good boy into a bad boy. Some Stress with Syahril before this, then Heart attack after. Rounds of Tekken 3 with Ming who came after work. A few were quite tired out so they went to sleep in the next room. Left a few awake so Ming dragged Wil and me out to fetch Jo, who nearly walked past us. In a dress. And heels. God bless her.



She was quite appalled that everyone was sleeping already. Haha and she wanted to wake everyone up. So we (those who woke up) settled for Murderer haha. And Syahril was going to start when he went, "Before the game start we must do a chant for it" which got me quite... confused. And Speechless, eventually when he went into the "Happy Birthday" charade with the others carrying the cake and walk as if they're in a wake from next door. HAHA great surprise for the November kids. Ming and Jo was like, "who's birthday who's birthday?!" So the four of us, (Jo Ming XJ and me) were given the anual honor of blowing the candle. An extra candle wa slit for Jas. Haha they were really nice. I love ((:



So for the real Murderer game. LOL. It was fun lah, the funny antics of us and all. Zy was supposed to do forfeit but then it was all forgotten when we started relating ghost stories and such. In the dark. With the tv glowing eerily. I was quite knocked out but not so. Syahril's story with added effects was award-winning for me. The rest were fine and nice. It was 0630hours by then and lights out. Good er... morning! Hard to sleep cause of the crampiness, not that I'm complaining, since one of my foot is in someone's stomach (I think Syahril's) and the other is on top of his thighs. Sorry lah. I nearly fell off the bed (I slept at the edge) when Mayyee tried climbing out of bed (she was practically plastered beside me). That woke me up lah. Thanks. Haha about a half hour's worth of sleep for a day.



Well no point trying to sleep when you cannot. Decided on a nice morning walk, Mayyee joined in with Ham. We walked till the beach; taking in the morning breeze and felt the dew on my skin. We went to the tower and not a bad view, just that the trees blocked most. The beach! I wanted to cry because it's pretty littered and all, not my thing. Skipped stones. Managed five at most. (: Ham practically ran back to the chalet since *coughcoughahemahem* messaged. So Mayyee and I had a 'romantic' walk back. Haha. I saw a cute squirrell and stroked an indistinguishable-sexed cat. Friendly cat, winding itself around me. Haha! We nearly got lost back.



The usual, helterskelter WAKEUPPEOPLEWEHAVETOCHECKOUTSOON. Pigs, the bunch of them. (: Syahril gave me a gift too. Sweeet and I gave him a big hug. Packed up and we were ready to go. One last group photo infront of the entrance, and we went separate ways.



A very memorable two days, albeit it being short. (: Memories that will be in myscreams of course.


Anyway digression. I still know I love you, past present and future. I'm fine without you knowing it. And I'm especially fine with how things are going (: But then things came to an end with the end of A levels. It's ok. Although I may ache with the memories at night, it is at least better than leaving empty handed. Oh, and sorry elf for all the damned trouble. Haha you can pump me tomorrow for details.


And I still do. Love you you know.

ofblack&white
4:59 PM

Good days, are the days after A's. But then, my friend, you have to spoil it today.


I know you'll say it is not... well. I know you think I'd take it lightly but. I still have feelings for that person, fragments that got stuck in me like pieces of glass in my skin. I don't know, I know you'll probably think I'm over-reacting but I think I still like that one too, even if I said I'm over and done with. I know you said you THINK you like, as always you say about the few. I know you said that when you wake up tomorrow you won't like the person anymore. But I feel it's not that way, not for you. I know you quite well enough to predict.


And I don't know why but it hurts. Silly of me, yes. I can imagine you panicking or scoffing at me for feeling this way but. It still kind of numbed me. Worse than when you told me about the third party who likes also. I think it's because you're close to me. I think it's because I speak my mind too freely with you that I am kind of uncomfortable with it when you told me since I spoke alot about the particular person.

I don't know what to think.



And yet I think I'm overreacting, I am sorry. I am not clear-minded right now, as I told you when you called haha. Let me sleep it over yes? And I'll probably call tomorrow. Haha. Thank God for an agony aunt who watched too much serials, and Jien-san for cheering me up with his usual banter.



Temptation- Why won't you leave me alone?

ofblack&white
7:19 PM

Yep folks, that's the end of my chapter in SRJC, kind of sad to look back and such. Ah well.



Anyway short entry since Kat wants to go off early (she just finished bathing) and Mimah polished off the remainder of the chocolate biscuits, treating this place like their own. LOL.



All in all good day! ((: Ended the paper, screamed and hugged the males, ate lunch ith them and had some neoprints. HAHA. So n00bs, the three of us. Then PLAYED SOCCER WITHOUT GUILT. Oh man. I like being a keeper, it felt good. The adrenaline when the ball comes close. Hoho. Got challenged by a group of boys naturally, so annoying the bunch of them. The fact that they smoke irk me the most. =.-


Ok enough about that. I'm sleeping over my grandma's. ((: I love her and my grandpa and the house soo. SO much memories can. AH. I hope Huda's specs are fine.


It still feels empty. Must get a book to occupy myself. I love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MICHLOVE PLEASE! <33

ofblack&white
5:44 PM

Don't ask. Ladies' Night and I kind of just reached home from a night of dancing, singing, eating and generally getting wild, with laughs and frantic table-banging. It's fun, but
I HAVEN'T GOT ANY STUDYING DONE.


I'm really going to fail. )): This is bad.



And what's worse is that I've been missing you every damned minute. This is bad, I'm getting emo and all. HOW and WHY. The stupid Nazi isn't doing any good. -.-


Sigh, count my blessings, they say. On a brighter note, I've gotten myself a soccer ball finally, the T90Swift, turqoise please. And my Nike Free! Navy blue, and both for a hundred. It screamed good bargain. Well, either good bargain of he lied to me again. Annoying. I practically had to hold his hand and shoved the 2 blue notes into his gigantic palm. -.- Oh. And a free lunch next week at Swensen's. Yahay.


): "Stay little valentine..."

ofblack&white
12:00 AM

It's Suntec shoe-shopping cum studying as well. Hmm. Auntie anne's made me think of my craving for Popeyes so I called one of the males and we met at the airport. Around till 6 I suppose, with the Priyayis and Burmese circle system to accompany our stay. Kind of ate alot really. Auntie Anne's, Popeyes then a slab of cheese cake. 7-Evelen at Tampines for the sake of pre-pregnancy craving for nachos plus cheese (I'm joking). I called the Nazi and told her I found a new love, and that he's sitting infront of me with an applegreen shirt and the Nazi went WHOOO and well, it's just the other male. HAHAH. She threatened me that if I were to cry wolf again she won't entertain. Good laugh at her expense though.



But well. Few hours after I called her (like 2055hours aka NOW), I felt that, I really miss the one I really love, or like, if you find love too strong and inappropriate a word to use. But I really do. Especially after the end of A's, I found the severity of THE END OF SCHOOL hit me hard today, of all days. Oh and fish. I realise what's the date today. Not that the other one (who cause the date to be a jinxed) mattered to me anymore (in fact it hardly did HAHA and I'm happy) but I kind of get melancholy. Blame me I know. No wonder Winnie calls me that.


How? The person that matters the most right now, well, I can't see you anymore. Why of all days it hit me I don't know. AH. I'm sure the Nazi would be laughing at me right now, and Ham&Bacon would be smiling, but whatever. EEE. I sound like a deranged teenager on first love but hey, it's kind of what I'm feeling right now. )): And every night I thought of all the things we did, it made me laugh but it also made me cry. How absurd. HAHA.


How can I not miss you, when you are gone?


P.S: Rachel and Jiamin, please don't get me a lingerie set thank you. T.T

ofblack&white
8:56 PM

A productive day (for shopping at least). After numerous rounds and entering the same shops for about three to four times, I finally decided on a pair, cute blue ones. That's pending, naturally. Checking out B.I.R.D stores tomorrow if I can. While studying for History. (: Picked out another fantastic deal please; 260$ for a PS2 (the slim one) with modifications, two free games, controllers and the usual memory card.



Talk about gold mine, I hit a metal shop. Ecstatic felt short of what I feel. Rows and rows of familiar names; Iron Maiden, Dream Theater, Yngwie Malmstein, Stratovarius, Sonata Artica, Opeth, Edguy, Helloween, Children of Bodom, Dragonforce and so much more! They don't have Backstreet Boys the likes LOL. Candies. So I've gotten myself Live At Budokan. Which is ultimate love. Seems as if my examinations had ended. HAHA. Just the last paper. And I refuse to run out of steam.


Due to excessive walking, I got a blister between my toes. Oh and, miraculously, once again, I manage to get lost in the tiny red dot of the world map. Trio in search of something elusive (not to mention RED -.-). AH. I think it's me. Whenever people are with me they'll get lost. How annoying, no? Like Pasir Ris with Qis. Whatev.



Good night! (:

ofblack&white
9:05 PM

AH. The case study was SOO annoying, I doodled stick figures while figuring how the fuck am I suppose to go about answering. Seriously, I answered it as if I'm doing a GP essay please thank you. It is such an annoying question, and I think there goes my chance of university, out the window screaming au revoir to me. It's not really the matter of studying or not (which I DID -.-) its the matter of going about to answer it. SO ANNOYING!


Well at least it was a nice morning, for I spent it playing soccer. Yes I can see some giving me withering disapproving looks but hey. It perks up my day so I can perform better (I think). There's Huda Mimah Sya Zhong CJ and Anna! Funnish. I played for an hour or even lesser. But I got my daily dose. Funny affair, with me and the school skirt. So I went to school and changed. Soon after, it poured like anything. It's because Mayyee sings thats why, heaven's crying. LOL.


After the bitchy paper it was out and about! With my favourite males Syahril and Hamzah. ((: Sad naz couldn't join us can. ): Anyway we went to Darul Aman to pass Ham's cousin something, while chatting nonsensicals as usual. About chalet, of annoying papers, fun talking behind people's backs and all. Parkway Banquet for dinner please. And migrated to coffeebean with some random photos. Ham treated me to caramle frap, that nice fellow. ((: Went to Strabucks since what the metrosexual wants isn't available at Coffeebean. Chat chat chat till 8 nearing nine and I left. Haha with those two together. O.O It's eleven ten now and Syahril told me they just left each other. LOL.


I think I'm finally getting my shoes tomorrow, then drop by Naz's if I have the time. I hope I do. Seems like my papers have ended. LOL. Tired with the hoohas of today. Such a lovely day especially after papers.


Gooood night.

ofblack&white
10:59 PM

HEY. So as to sound more cheerful. Anyway! Economics Paper 3! It was a doable paper, really. I cannot really say it is easy, and it's hardly hard as well. So yea, sitting on the fence. I did the question on unemployment, inflation (this is something I wrote with my heart and soul LOL) and the one on forex. Quite a fun time writing, because I finally know what to write. Seriously. I don't think I can score but I hope I can get a fair C or B with this because I feel that I have the concept. I hope the old geezers at Cambridge feels the same way too.



Enough about Economics. I hope the few year 2s can take part in next week's Settle The Score (I so want to play soccer please). I just want to get A Levels (more like History) over and done with. I feel like gouging someone's eyes out just now. So irritating.



Ok good night love.

ofblack&white
7:40 PM

It seemed to be Binging Day for Syahril and I, seemed to eat a cow or two, or three, maybe add them up together. We met, airpork T2 (: Breafasted at BK, brunch of apple pie at Macs, lunch of pasta at Coffeebean (yes, against Cara's advice), with an apple muffin for him, and a nice 9 piece nuggets. It's his fault, I think he got that kind of effect.



Umm, of studying. Recapped most of the big Macro Economics topics, so there. Then about 3+ nearing four he started vandalising my book, of all things. And camwhored of course. That's something that can never be absent in our meetings. Then Naz's called and I told her I hooked up with a GOURGEOUS GIRL from SR (and is right in front of me HAHA) and she went WHAAAAT (in caps and bold please) so she called and guess what, I had to give a one-minute sex-change to the male himself and when he talked, well, he sounded very 'pinched'. HAHA. Naz was annoyed, that was all that mattered. LOL. Pranks.



Let's see. lemak! St Anhony of Padua (supposedly a saint who helps us find things when we lost it. He wrote that I'm looking for my virginity. -.-') Super raffles! Stamford raffles! Se-raffles Saint Rangoon. Sister of Raffles (on the acronym of SR). left, left... to the left. Bakhita! (the saint?? that the Africans patronise) S48 45 47 46 45 (with a square box) 44(don't ask what's that for I can't remember). adriyani was from one allamanda. SO was nabilah. So was yap ting yi (random facts about his friends -.-) Ili was here!



Kittens are love when you get to see them. ((: Ok I want to go off to Keynes. Bleah I haven't finish. Last night I dreamt about going to sleep in a haunted house with Qistina and she freaked out when she saw footsteps and we were both wondering if the ghost was Haris (yes from TK) and then wondering again how he could be a ghost when he is still alive. Then I dreamt of Mayyee (of all people) tugging my arm into the school pond and we're in school uniform. Absurd I know, but this shows how wild my imagination could be. =.=


Babi. Go all the way, I will be there if you need me. (: I bid the globe gooodnight.

ofblack&white
8:32 PM

Yes! I'm singing already. Zy asked for some Economics and he sounded like a dripping tap. Lucky number four, though I'm praying him being sick isn't actually my fault. Ah whatever actually. Just flu. LOL.



My brain's switched to holiday mode of all days and attempts to study failed. I'm still trying to, by all means. Slapping myself, drinking my 'study' drink, some cerealwhatnot, playing 'study' songs. But nooo. I never know I am this stubborn unconciously. Now I can sympathise with those who yak and fumed at my stubbornness. But ah well, my mind's made up anyway, so be it.


What am I to do with Economics! I know that I know, but I'm just afraid at the moment that I need to know I forget and not know! HAHA. Sounds like Peter Piper with his peck of pepper (Hamzah's notorious with tongue twisters by the way).


(: Ok I shall retry at 1930 hours. In the meantime, happily wailing nice old songs in a happy way. I'm so carefree that I'm afraid for myself. Well, I didn't exactly felt that impending fear bulldozing me when the A's came actually.


My mom confided in me about her plans next year, and yet again they are ditching their kids for holiday far far away. Haha I'll get back at her. Like inviting truckloads of guys to stay over (even if it means to just play scrabble or tuition, she won't know). Haha! Hamzah got a brilliant plan of me going off to JB alone and stuff. Best idea! Buy ciggarettes and light them in the master bedroom and closing it for the whole duration. It's going to stink up the world. Yay! LOL.


Ok it's time. MUST STUDY LAH. I found a nice song I loved to sing to in sec 4.
"and if/forever's not enough for me to love you/I'd spend another lifetime baby/if you ask me to/there's nothing I won't do/forever's not enough for me to love/you sooooo"
<3 Good evening.

ofblack&white
7:22 PM

Oh yesterday was fine indeed. I was able to do the History paper, but I could potentially get C if I DID any intensive studying for it. Hahah typically I run away from these shit and typically the mountain of regret started avalanching like nobody's business. Haha! Whatever, it is over. If I have to redo then just redo. No big deal. Eh?


Well papers have been fair, I'm just not fair to myself. ANYWAY haha. Yesterday I came early, partly to see coach and watch the girls, partly to study early. I managed all save the first. Coach didn't come the last minute haha. What the hell. Yakyak goes the girls, as usual. I got a nice card by them (: So sweet. Not all are there though lol.


So with Huiqi's ever-MIAing and Mun's ever-absenting and Zhong's ever-ready mama (and car), I had lunch with only 5 of them. Hougang Mall-ed and loads of bull from them please. "HEY!" HAHA. We saw alot of Hardly-Innocents and loudly called them that. The annoyance they must've felt.


Then the paper. Cj, being the nice and kind one decided to wait for me and went home with her (and her bull of course). (: I don't think Amanda watch Justice League please.



At 6 plus I was awake, on a Saturday please! And train-ed my way to JURONG EAST with the mom (Julia Roberts), a Richard Gere lookalike and the blackman himself. HAHA. Had quite fun at the Science Centre with orphans. And well, I kind of got attached to a few. Quite sad and eye-opening really, to see how they are deprived of the things we took for granted. =

Tired. Shall start studying soon-ish. I'm sorry to Naz (no. one), Syahril (no. two), Kat (no. three) and the potential lucky no. four for contracting my disease (just flu anyway). -.-

ofblack&white
7:24 PM

Hello. Yesterday's Math paper was a... painful affair. Holding your bladder for nearly an hour when it felt like bursting was by no means a great feat. And with the aircon blasting and nose running what more does a girl want? HAHA. I had to run out of the hall because gosh, I needed the restroom so badly.



Ok seriously, the Math paper was quite... doable, especially question 7 onwards. Sadly, there's also alot of room for careless mistakes, something I excel in doing *rolls eyes*. Ok I really pray careless mistakes eluded me yesterday. =\ Yesterday Huda gave me Come Fly With Me DVD for a belated gift. I LOVE HER SO (but I love Buble more). Oh gosh his voice is so so... smooth and well. Melting. HAHA. Thanks honey. (:


Tomorrow is Math 2 and Friday is History 1. I have not much worries for my stats, just the carelessness again. But History is a different story. =\ I'm very scared for History.


Ok that's about all for today. I want my shoes! I am falling out, and trust me when I say this *glares at elf*. Study hard yes! I want to play soccer.

ofblack&white
7:00 PM

The body definitely doesn't have a brain. Getting sick during a major examination is not something I've envisage for the past 18 years for God's sake. And here I am, shivering at the slightest wind, sniffing whatever threatens to run and having a cough that would make a TB-infected person proud. AHH. The hell lah, it's Mathematics tomorrow and I can't bloody screw it up.

Or can I?


Boo. I feel miserable. I followed Syahril's advice of drinking water as if I'm drowning in the pool, and the only way out alive would be to drink it (minus chlorine please). Effects? Excessive usage of the toilet. Honestly, I think the school toilet have my butt imprinted on the seats. Oh fuck lah I'm just scared for tomorrow and things aren't really going my way now. Please please please cure. I really feel... argh. Lousy. I'm appalled at my ability to fall sick at the perfect time.


Never mind. I've smiled for the day (: Please cure fast. Good night world.

ofblack&white
9:49 PM

Yay. It's quite a nice day for me, ((: The morning started out with me higgledy piggledy helping my mom with 30+ over relatives who came over. Hectic I tell you. After the salvation army attacked the other house I just sat and waited for KAT, WHO APPARENTLY FELL ASLEEP. Haha ah well. She attacked the food too, the dinosaur (quotes her) that she is. The special day it is today, I'll just upload random photos. ((:





Once upon a time when notes get so dull you are compelled to take self-portraits.






Last Friday, the girls trashed the GUYS (I don't know where they came from anyway) 8-6. Match well played! Although the males were gracious and gentlemanly like those from olden times (don't ask me where all the gentlemen disappear in the 21st century). Our female Lancelots are Anna Sya Huda Mimah CJ Dina (aka TINA LOL). I'm cheerleader aka coach-ess. <3





Er. That's what I was last time, past months; angsty. Over some... ah issues at hand. It's settled, but I'm not. HAHA what the hell. No wonder Winnie calls me EMO. Yes, winnie, love from emo. LOL.






Yes the extended family happened to remember. And I have no chance of shying away anyway, so there. Embarassingly being sung a birthday song by nearly 20+ people. Gosh.





I love this er... dress? Jubah. Haha. When you get bored, you get bored.




CROSS DRESSER. Haha no lah. Just Kat in my baju kurung. She came over to study, but hey. Spot of 'makeover' won't do any harm... no? She does that to cover her (gigantic humongous) pimple. No lah just exaggerating. Right?





In pink! One of my favourite please. And she doesn't know how to pose. AAAHH.


Many wishes and such, I'm quite happy. But the thing that made me slightly down was that. Well. One of you... the one I. Ya. Just a simple wish from you will make me smile but. Haha. Silly of me. Sorry. I still can't make up my mind between the two. What the hell. Huda must've been banging her head on the wall at my GIRLY indecisiveness which picked the wrong time to act up.

=/ Ah well. Haha at least the other you is always there.

MUG ILI.

ofblack&white
9:33 PM

Oh good Lord, I pray, heal me. It was a torturous hour and a half paper, really. The first paper. I nearly gave up halfway because the throat and cough was irritating the shit out of me. I hate to admit, I nearly cried during the duration because it was so frustrating, feeling the concentration slipping out of my mind. And it didn't help that my strepsils and water nearly ran out. Ay. It was quite smooth sailing afterwards, after I steeled myself to go through it. I felt that I didn't do THAT badly.


Paper 2 was quite ok too, since the cough didn't plague me much after. Pleasantly surprised that the marks were well spread out. Most annoying was the summary and application question. "How free do you want to be?" on our view of freedom and rights. I was tempted to scribble "Very free that I do not want to attempt the AQ." Ah. The joys of rationality. I gave quite my all for the AQ, so no regrets. Time to burn GP notes.


Off for Mathematics and History. I have been avoiding History like Black Death. Musn't run away anymore.


Oh. Went off for lunch and met with Huda, the 20% feminine girl. HAHA. Halfway enjoying my meal he called, wanting to meet me so that he could pass something to ma through me. And yea, he did came all the way to Compass, which was surprising really. What's more surprising and annoying was that he didn't get anything for mom, but for me. Early gift. Shock, horror, pleasure and guilt steamrolled when I saw what he got me. I shall not disclose. But the elf and pig seemed to be having some fun bothering me about it. Not funny.


Shucks. Off to study to win my bets. Ciao and work hard all.

ofblack&white
7:18 PM

Yes. D-Day, is tomorrow. Suddenly I felt scared, don't ask why. The heart says, "it's just another exam missy", while the brain added, "ya the one that'll determine your future." It's make or break, roadsweeper or lecturer. Ay. I felt lost for confidence at the moment, simply because I didn't do ANYTHING for GP. And I don't even know where to start. It's like your O level english (though I hope the disastrous lone C wouldn't make an appearance again), something... you need alot of time, brains and memory apparently.



Some prank calls during break. Kat's scream, hahaha to 3 poor souls. Huda actually thought Kat was scared of the thunder thus screaming and putting down the phone. LOL.



It's make or break, says I. The two years in SR ultimately led to this; 3 weeks of examination. I want my two years to be a meaningful one, something that will be reflected on my certificate next year. I want to prove to myself that I am worthy of the three simple words; diligentia ingenium dexteritas. AH well I'm still attached to that greenery anyway. And I want to show you, them, that I didn't go to school for the sole reason of... ya.


Ok I pray, we'll do fine, I'll do fine. To make my parents proud, and myself. And to show some male ego that I am better than him, and to show you that I can do better. And to not lose money in March. Alot on stake, yet I just realise the severity of the load upon my back.


Selamat malam.

ofblack&white
9:24 PM